Wednesday, April 23, 2025
Tuesday, April 23, 2024
Happy Birthday, Happiness
I return to this completely ignored space to acknowledge my daughter's 20th birthday.
Darling Daughter,
When you became a teenager, your pediatrician said "we just have to get her through adolescence." That is probably a standard line said to every parent of a 12 or 13 year old but for you it became our mantra.
Because you have pretty much been a 20 year old since you were 4 years old.
You have spent a chunk of your life with some people who didn't get you. You were too tall, too loud, too sensitive, too everything. But really it was that folks weren't ready for you. Could not fathom all that you were when you were young. Were not ready for your fabulous presence when you walked into a room, for your smarts when you pointed out something brilliant, for your insistence that people be kind, for your gushing commitment to friends, family and our dog. Lord you love our dog.
Now I get to sit back and marvel at you. The hard part for me is over. We got you through adolescence. You get to be you with joyous abandon. Welcome to your 20's.
Happy Birthday darling you.
Mom
Posted by soccer mom in denial at 11:49 AM
Sunday, April 23, 2023
Happy Birthday, Happiness
[Gulp. 19.]
Darling Daughter,
I have that lovely joy of waking up in the middle of the night and unable to go back to sleep. Not every night but enough to be annoying. Early this Friday morning I awoke at 1am all grumbling that I had to face hours of lying in bed staring at the ceiling when I joyfully realized...
I could listen to your radio show at 2am.
Which is just bizarre because I had a radio show in early hours of Friday morning when I went to college. Adding to the bizarreness of it all is you are rowing like I did. You are also attending the same college I attended.
Which is where the similarities stop.
You are much smarter than I. Really. Your focus and dedication to academics has earned you a spot in the college Honors Forum after only one semester. You also have a way more robust social life than I ever did in college. You're telling me about parties and gatherings I never would have been a part of. I am so excited that you are making college yours.
When I called the radio station at 2am I knew exactly where you were sitting, how dark the room was and how it feels like no one is listening (which is kind of true since the live stream isn't working and what college kid owns a stand-alone radio these days). You had me listen through the phone and I got to hear you introduce Scarlett by Claud and Stressed - A Colors Show by Doechii. We talked while the songs played then you had me introduce myself on air and even announce that listeners heard Mariah the Scientist's 2 You.
While it is an honor to have you in the spaces I once called my own, it is a joy to watch you make them yours and be even better than I dreamed I could be.
Happy 19th birthday.
I love you,
Mom
Labels: birthday letters, daughter, family Posted by soccer mom in denial at 6:30 AM
Saturday, April 23, 2022
Happy Birthday, Happiness
[Oh my god. That says 18.]
Darling Daughter,
Earlier this week we sat in a sample lecture at the accepted students' day of a college you are considering. The psychology professor talked about personality traits and stated there is research indicating that personality can be known within hours of someone being born.
Which is why your Birthday Letter is always titled "Happy Birthday Happiness".
You prove this Professor's point. You beamed out happiness within hours of arriving in the world on Friday, April 23, 2004. You have personified happiness since Day 1.
As you embark on adulthood hold onto your happiness. You exude it when you get up and rarely have that grumpy teenager sheen. You ensure your happiness when we travel by planning the itinerary. Our trip to Southern California last month was pretty much all your planning. You meticulously mapped out the great college tour of 2021 and were proud of how it all worked out. You came up with fun ideas when you, Dad and I went to Iceland.
But it is not just when we travel (which I love to do with you because you are fun to travel with. And really hope this continues) but also in all parts of life. You are genuinely happy when you complete a task, even before you receive feedback. I admire that you appreciate your efforts. You have worked a variety of jobs and the act of working gives you satisfaction.
You deserve to be happy.
Of course there will be days, weeks - painfully even months - when happiness could be elusive but that is different from being worthy of happiness. You bring so much joy to the world and the people around you through your hard work, love of music, big smile and compassion. Always remember that you also give yourself happiness.
As we drove back from the college this week we played - several times - Lizzo's new song About Damn Time. It couldn't be a more perfect tune to celebrate you turning 18.
I'm way too fine to be this stressed, yeahOh, I'm not the girl I was or used to beBitch, I might be better
You get better every day and that is reason alone to be happy.
I love you,
Mom
Labels: birthday letters, daughter, family Posted by soccer mom in denial at 12:30 AM
Sunday, August 22, 2021
Love, more
It seems only fitting that the day my twin boys turn 21 years old we are preparing for the first hurricane to hit our region in 30 years. Their shared arrival certainly upended our lives and changed our history as a family.
However, this year feels different because while they are separate people my message to them is the same.
So I return, once again, to this completely ignored space on the interwebs to acknowledge my twin boys' 21st birthday.
Dear son and son,
Every year for your shared birthday I write each of you a letter that I don't actually give you but I post on this blog that I barely go to. Every year I make an observation or five, impart some wisdom, assure you both I love you then wish you a Happy Birthday.
This year is different. This year you both are turning 21. Watching and listening to you both this year has been watching you be the adults you are. The adults you are becoming. I finally get to truly marvel at who you each are and not worry that my awe will overshadow some lesson or punishment. Because it is hard to be the stern disciplinarian assuring you have manners and common sense when being awe-struck. Now I just get to be awe-struck.
While being a parent of young children and teens is fun and rewarding, I've been waiting for this time. The time I get to just listen and not have to fix something because now you both have the skills and resources to do it yourself. The time when we talk not because of some obligation but because we want to share something, laugh about something, figure out something or just remember. Rest assured I'll still listen to your problems but more often than not I hope you'll figure out that you have the skills, strength and means to fix them yourself. It may take some time, even years, but you'll figure it out. Then I'll get to be awe-struck again.
This is the big birthday for all of us. You're adults and I'm your adoring mom. A role I will treasure and relish and celebrate.Just like I do each of you.
Happy birthday.
I love you so very much.
Mama
Labels: birthday letters, family Posted by soccer mom in denial at 6:30 AM
Friday, April 23, 2021
Happy birthday, Happiness
I return to this completely ignored space to acknowledge my daughter's 17th birthday.
Dear Darling Daughter,
Here we are again.
I love you,
Mom
Labels: birthday letters, daughter, family Posted by soccer mom in denial at 5:00 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2020
Love, More
I return to this completely ignored space to acknowledge my twin boys' 20th birthday. I'm still marveling that these 6'1" young men started off on August 22, 2000 as 30-week preemies each weighing less than four pounds.
Dear son,
You were ready for college when you were 12 so finally getting to move into the dorm in a different part of the country was just a natural continuation of who you are. You quickly made friends, settled into the rugby team and found the freedom of college life just what you hoped it would be. Your rugby team even made national championship to be played in April and life was good.
Then a global pandemic hit.
You had to finish your freshman year in your childhood bedroom. You couldn't return to your grocery store job because of concerns for my health. You are facing a future that feels stunted and limited.
Yet you still have hope. Still have purpose. Still have your insane energy that makes you bounce around like a 6'1" Muppet. You've been working on a U.S. Senate campaign and getting excited about how elections can make a difference.
We are navigating how to live together after you tasted the freedom of college. You have generally been a joy to be around except for the late night kitchen raids (do the dishes).
Happy birthday.
I love you so very much.
Mama
Dear son,
College wasn't your thing and you were scared to tell me. I am sorry you were ever worried to talk about what was important to you. Since then you found a job with a paving company and then, mere months later, took a job with another company that quickly trained you to hook up gas lines. You come home with stories from the field, random baked goods from grateful residents and a strong sense of purpose. You are valued at the job and have colleagues who are mentoring you.
You are managing to thrive during a pandemic. It is exciting to watch you make your own decisions and deal with the consequences. You agonized about telling your boss you were giving your two weeks notice. While the easy way out was to text, you thought through what to say in a phone call. In the end he was gracious and you are still in touch.
Thank you for being true to yourself.
Happy birthday.
I love you for being you.
Mama